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Short Post, Update...

2012-02-06T00:35:00.001+08:00

went to bras basah or besar to get things done today. nothing much. didn't slept the whole night of ytd until now. damn happening. this's how my life goes...

slept and woke up around 9 plus 10 in the night. then prepare and head down to jab one and had a few drinks.

went to meet friends , they came over jab to fetch us then to bin's house take helmet. then we went petrol kiosk then macritchie reservoir slack and chill.

then some don't wanna head home yet like us so early in the morning went to drink with the indians to drink. ahhhh ~ u know lah , indians ~ TANNI!! wahahahahaha.

did not drank much. then head home about 8 plus in the morning then bin came over , slack and chill until afternoon then till evening then decided to head to bras basah/besar. lol.

we did not want to sleep as we felt it was a waste of time. like sleep already then night time 不三不四 timing wake up again. so we decided to "tong" until now. power to the people ~~~ lol.

was thinking if i can wake up earlier later then going to bukit timah tua peh kong and have a date with my beloved boyf. it's been awhile.... but don't wanna make empty promises. bought the ba long long already, just thinking going on later or tues. ^^

well, anyway, just a thought of myself before i say goodnight.....
女孩子通常有了新欢，或是有好感，或是爱的人，日日夜夜，开口闭口就是只有＂他＂。不管那女的是在跟谁，在做什么，时时刻刻嘴里出来的都是＂他＂。可是一旦那女的绝望了，累了，放弃了。她已不想要再次地提起＂他＂。就连听，也不想听到＂他＂的名字。所以说啊，女人是不是真可怕？在我眼里，爱情，才是真正叫人，令人可怕的东西。。。我怎样都学不会，搞不好，永远也学不会。

tired, goodnight. enjoy my pictures. wahahahaha. :D

Getting Inked... A Small One.

2012-02-05T16:40:00.003+08:00

Aloha people ! I'm gonna go get myself inked tonight.

For people who knows me, I always get inked when I gets

fucked up in life, hurt in whatever. LOL. Stupid I know, maybe

by the time I'm 30+ years old kind of full already. haha.

Whatever, not funny I know. lol.

Anyway, is just a small one. On my wrist ba. Can be covered

by my watch I guess.

Something like that....

KgkxSwh

Maybe not so big lah. Haha. Maybe will edit a bit also cause reach there then say lah. Kk, I haven't sleep, damn srrrreeeeeeepy now. HAHAHAHAHA.

Gonna go catch some rest or to bathe and slack and prepare . haha.

Byeeee people ! See you ! :D

to someone...

2012-02-01T06:31:00.001+08:00

if i ever appear again infront of u, be in ur life again, would u hold me tight and asked me to never ever leave u again? or have th thought of leaving u again?

i want that assurance. i want to know that i am someone important. i want to know that i did make ur life beautiful and colourful and maybe wonderful.

i don't want to keep having thoughts about whether u'll be falling for another girl. whether when i'm here missing u, would u be missing other people. whether am i someone to u cause u always don't bother about what i ever told u. about my work related stuffs , about where i am, what i'm doing.

i just want u to be more concern about me. about what's going on. i know u might be busy and tired at work. i am trying to be considerate too.

i always wanna let u sleep a bit more when the alarm rings in the morning. and yet i'm afraid u might wake up late and it's kinda like my fault for not waking u up. i wanna wake u up and not let u get back to sleep but it just seems to me like i'm disturbing ur rest.

i do not know what to do anymore that at times , i so much wanted to see u, just to sleep beside u and hugging u to sleep. i don't mind taking cab in the middle of the night over just to see u and then slowly take a train back in the morning BUT yet again, i do not want to disturb ur sleep.

i miss us , i miss those days when we can stay the whole day at home just to watch show. or to meet friends tgt then home. or u going to work and i waited. and u came back immediately after ur work. that's the period of time where i felt my importance. where we were happy.

i know things turned out this way were mostly my fault. i don't blame anyone else but me. right now, there's too many broken pieces between us amd i just don't know what to do and how.

many a times i just feel like not caring about those things and just carry on with the way we are but yet i know , things ain't the same anymore. if it can't be solved now, it seriously cannot go any further.

i'm lost right now, very lost. what happened to us. so does this even mean we are not meant to be? but why does my heart tells me that we are?

can we, just talk things out someday? i really feels like talking to you some day about us, about everything. but u always seemed so tired to me. i didn't want to add on stress to u about us cause i know u're stress with work already.

thinks that u do that made me more angry was that, i gave up myself meeting u cause i thought ubwere tired. i didn't wanna be unreasonable and made u tired about always having to meet me and spare a thought for me. that's why no matter how much i wanna see u, i always tell myself, it's okay. if u really wanna see me , u will say and we will meet and many times , i really just want u to go home and rest after ur work. BUT....

in the end... u told me u went to drink, u told me u were out with ur friends. i was like.... dumbfound. u didn't even asked if i wanna meet. maybe.... maybe u thought if i wanna meet i'd say and yet i'm here waiting for u to say it too. i don't know.

i don't know if we could ever be the same or better or worst, i don't know? just wanna say, u're someone i did care. and i don't know what will happen to us and what has happened to us. just wanna say.... till i meet someone new who can make everything different, it's still you... and him.

will we be ever to build up all the broken pieces together again? although there's definitely still be cracks but at least we know we tried? hmmm....

to love or be loved?

2012-01-31T04:48:00.001+08:00

today i head down to liquid empire for the first time. am glad i wasn't lost and found my way there. so proud of myself !! lol. but the journey from raffles mrt to there is damn farrrrr ~ it's like a journey to the west. okay~ i'm #justsaying. -.-

it was damn spacious compared to the past liquid definitely. it has three stories. first and second for customers drink, drank drunk and third is for people to rest. maybe like regulars and waitress who is really really damn drunk or not feeling well. place where we place our bags while working. :)

the steeeepest and scariest stairs was the stairs to go up to level 3. damn ~ i hop i better be sober everyday and walked with both my eyes open big !! i'm already very clumsy when i'm not drunk. when i'm drunk, even worst. already can foresee will roll down the stairs some day though. 死不了就还好吧？lol.

went down to ion orchard to get something for gracey with wifey as her birthday is coming soon. i tell u ahhh. choose present for this gracey is damn troublesome de. lol !!

wanted to buy accessories BUT... she earring cannot, will infection. necklace need pure gold if not will rashes. bracelet she already wearing two. she don't really wear watch. tell meeeee !! what to buy for her !!?? :O

me and wifey chose a long time between LV and prada. don't know which to buy until i call her and asked. lv or prada? haha. :3

bought "sth" for her which shouldn't be disclosed here just in case she came to read it. lol. wanted to bought another one but i "think", think only lah. she'd prefer this. lol.

anyway, she could just go back and change herself within 10 days if she doesn't like it ba. just top up a bit more? :D haha.

alright ~ after that head down to jab one and had a few drinks. really is few cause i can't drink much as i just had surgery done. maybe like drink two cups beer? lol.

then went for movie again !! movie marathon. haha. went to catch "i love hong kong 2012" niceeee !! but don't know why while watching towards the ending like my heart feel a bit sour sour. like don't know leh. like if really going end of the world , i'm like also not sure who i wanna spend my last moment with. i know ~ family of course but i'm sure many of u would definitely have that "someone" u love whom u wished to spend with too, right. at that point of time.... i was, lost. :(

well, anyway, i guess i should go back and talk about the title of my post, right? lol.

okay, it's like that. sometimes i wonder which is most happier? to love or to be loved? there is this saying that goes, ＂被爱是幸福的。＂true? i'm sure everybody heards that before. or maybe most.

yesss and no indeed. yes , of course being loved by someone is happy cause u do not need to be afraid of getting hurt because u only accepts things from others and u do not give. u can throw temper as and when u like because u do not care. u can just ignore him as and when u like because u got no feel for him. u can meet other guys and he meets other girls cause u totally don't give a shit.

whereas , to love someone, u keep giving without expecting things to return is hurtful. u love and u care so much that u selfishly wants to just keep that person all just by yourself that u don't want other people to talk to, to smile to, to even looked at. don't even mention going out together.

sometimes i feels that love can be so scary. why must we even have love? why must we have one partner? is it a must? why can't we just be alone? we were born alone and we leave this world alone. why must we hurt the other party when we depart from this world?

okay, let's not drift too far about leaving this world. why must we even hurt the other party when we once, loved that he / she so much at first. be it quarrels, breakups. why must ther be tears and heartaches in a relationship. if that's the case, why can't we just be alone? why can't we just stand being lonely?

for me, i don't really feels that being loved is exactly happier. to love and be loved by the person u love is the happiest. but yet, in this life, across billions and zillions of people on earth. how many times do u really met this kind of situation? most of the times is just that u love that person more or the other person loves u more. it is never fair.

just wanna say, if u really foun urself loving and being loved by someone u love. cherish it , before it's too late. mine was already too late. it should be taught a lesson to me dearly. BUT... 我怎样都学不会。:( i am still me. i did not change at all. i still throw temper and gave my shitty attitude to people i care, who is important to me.

i still keep saying i wanna leave whenever i feels insecure and whenever i feels that the other party doesn't love me as much as i love him. yes, i admit. i'm selfish, i'm timid. i don't wanna love someone more than he loves me. because i'm afraid. i'm afraid of losing someone dearly again. i hate that feeling. but yet again, when i think back again, i'm actually hurting myself more.

yes, people do say we need to think ahead for our future but yet again. who knows, who knows what will ever happens in the future? who knows i'll still be blogging or even texting my friends tmr? i may not wake up the very next day. sometimes i feels that yes , maybe i think too much and i should seriously stop all that shit.

maybe i've grown up too late but i feels that things should just be the way it is now. if u're happy. :) we should sometimes really not think too much. if it is yours, it would be yours eventually. :)

i'm learning.... still learning. :) alright, some people may agree or disagree with the things i've said here. but already said, this is my blog, my say. i'm just voicing out what i felt deep down in my heart. a place where i can pen down all my thoughts and feelings be it people agree with me or not. :)

i'm heading to bed soon. tired. just feels like starting work soooon and not think so much bout anything. just work, sleep and catching up with friends.

fuck love, fuck hate. fucked up life. lol. enjoy the pictures people. :D till then...

today; 28 jan 2012

2012-01-29T04:18:00.001+08:00

nothing much bout today. went to bukit timah and bai nian and played 2 rounds of mahjong. ^^

first time play mahjong lose so much !! :x hahaha. but is okay nahhh ~ new year mah. ended about 2 plus and everybody is tired. but now heard the sounds of mahjong and i'm tempted much again. :x LOL !!

hmmm, nothing much to update. felt very tired of everything that i don't even wanna bother to say out already. just wanna... let it be. haha. realise that the more u wanna solve things and the more u want things to go ur way, it just won't so why not, just leave it like that? :) haha. soooo optimistic. i know right ~ hahahahaha.

have been to bukit timah a number of times already. wonder whether was it him seding me secret signals telling me that he miss me and it's been kind of awhile since i last went to visit him. haha. but then again, he should be anywhere, everywhere, anytime looking at me, right? sigh.

i miss him. :( alright alright ~ let the peeeekchuressss do all the talking now. :) goodnight again people. xoxo.

not satisfied

2012-01-28T05:59:00.001+08:00

hello people !! i'm here today with pictures of myself , half a face with make up and half a mace without. ^^

haha. and of course some few shots of myself , my zilian pictures. :D i edited the photos all together of course if not u guys gotta scroll until ur fingers cramp. u can't really stop me if i'm in a good mood to take pictures especially of myself. i'll just spam and spam and spam and it goes on and on and on. lol.

alright. moral of this story, my whole post is that we girls are never satisfied of ourself. people always asked, u're already not ugly what. why wanna make up and spoil ur complexion and waste time waste money? BUT....

who doesn't wanna make themself more pretty , right? we wanna leave good first impression to others too, right? the so called if guys love u, they will love your everything is still BULLSHIT !!

what the truth is , first impression always does matter. i mean, would u even make an effort to know a girl more if she doesn't dress up and make up? the answer is NO !! u wouldn't even look at her one more time.

and when some day, u seen her dressing up and making up looking all pretty , u then realise how beautiful she was and regret all ur actions and thinking, it's all gonna be too late !!! lol.

therefore guys , never looked down on a plain jane. we're all humans , we're not perfect. we all will look good if we bother and make the effort to dress up. :)

and girls , don't ever be too lazy or have the traditional thinking of, "it's okay not to dress up. if guys love me, they will love my everything." this is all bullshit. sometimes we just gotta face the fact and be a bit more realistic. sigh.

anyway, summary for today, went to catch a movie, 龙众舞 and then went to geylang lor 13 to see see maybe my new workplace. haha. maybe gonna go there and try being a singer. lol.

i love to sing and has never try before working something like this. so maybe can try out if it suits me? ^^ haha. do give some support when i'm more familiarise with the place. don't come when i'm only a newbie lah. will shy u know. must warm up first. haha.

after that, head down to jab one and have some drinks with friends. i didn't drink as i just had surgery few days/weeks ago. just went down to catch up, sing song and drink green tea. haha. *good girl*

after that, head down to cineleisure and watch movie AGAIN WITH THE SAME CLIQUE i went earlier on. haha. movie marathon yo ~ :p
catch the "journey 2 the mysterious island" this time.

not too bad in my point of view the two shows above. ^^

alright, enough of saying. can't wait to start work immediately though. liquid empire is opening back soon too. gonna get myself soooo busy already. :D

still haven't got a chance to head down to the new liquid empire and take a look. definitely gonna be so lost when it opens. don't think i even know how to walk there from boat quay. haha.

alright, it's getting "early" already. it's 6 in the morning already. good mornight people and hope u guys enjoyed reading. byeeee ~ will update again. :)

p.s/ the photos may not be in sequence. ^^

too bored... don't laugh at me ahhh ~ :3

2012-01-25T19:21:00.003+08:00

before you people start playing my youtube own singing, if you're using desktop,

please go to the bottom and pause the songs first nah. heehee ~ :D

Hahahahahaha.

actually i did a few videos before that. only the recent ones more

can show people lah cause got make up mah. LOL.

the rest was i did it few years back (okay, not really yearssss but maybe year? lol. :x) and a few was weeks back without any make up. hurhurhur ~

ehhhh , sorry lah. but i really bored at home. :(

waiting to go bai nian now.

Anyway, took a few stupid pictures also.

firstly was with only half a face with make up.

then whole face. wanna tell people there is no ugly

people in this world. only lazy people. is see you all

wanna make and put in the effort or not. Haha.

Forgot to take my naked first at first before I thought of it. Hurhurhur ~ so sorry loh, too bad loh. for people who hates me and wanna say how ugly i am before make up.

neh neh ni poo poo ~ :p

hahahahahahahaha.

BUT THEN.... the photos all inside my phone neh. see tonight free or not blog again with those photos ba. ^^

but will not be in sequence though. cause i insert the photos liao only can either delete or just leave it there. -.- LOL.

Alright, another one more video before i leave. :)

hope you people enjoy. anyway, also a few songs that i wanna express how i'm feeling now.

k k , go bai nian already byeeee ~ :D

cb !!! don't know why youtube put these as thumbnail photo of this video.

lan jiao bin loh jitao. :x LOL.

k lah ~ enjoy ! bye bye byeeee ~ :)

uttering and blabbering nonsense...

2012-01-25T06:22:00.001+08:00

had steamboat dinner just now at my grammy's place. been so long since i last had steamboat at her place... miss it sooo much. that feeling, with all of my cousins. haha. :)

anyway, first time i'm using this blogger app to update my blog. since i have this app now, no such excuse about lazy to update my blog already. lol.

went to kbox at broadway plaza just now with my cousins and mummy just now as we were really too bored and no plou glam. what a boring new year this year. more and more not anticipating bout my new year as i grow older. my ang baos money shrinking anyway. hate to grow up. sooner later , will be my turn to give out money and i hate that shit !! :( *if only i successfully found my soul mate* lol.

anyway, actually blogged quite a lot just now right before this post. typed out quite a number of song lyrics that best describe what i'm feeling now, my love life maybe? haha.

been trying very very very hard to move on u know. :( nvm, i know. just can't seem to find the right one. and when i feels that i've finally meet the right one, all my childish act comes out again. okay, seriously... i know not much people can take up all these shit personality that i have. but sometimes , i just felt like i have no control over my mind and my body and brain. gosh!! i wish i were dead at times. better of that way.

yaaa , anyway... talking bout that really made me piss. cause i'm using ipad to listen to the mv and typed it out word by word in chinese using phone. the reason for it disappearing and not posting it here, right now is because.....

u know there's this problem with iphone... sometimes u use until damn shiok already, it suddenly jumps out to the home screen and everything that u're doing halfway.. IS NOT SAVED !! bloody hell !!!

that's why... there it goes... tsk ! -.- and the problem with this app here now, is that, it's totally different from blogging using ur desktop.

okay, u know right, for those people who blogged, while u were typing, blogger.com will auto save right, so that IF ANY CASE, anything or any shit happens, u could still go back to your draft and continue. well for this case, the mobile doesn't !! sigh ~ and the photos i uploaded using mobile also don't know in sequences or not.

whatever it is and nevertheless, i'm srill here, blogging and bullshitting. lol. i think i better not say too much cock just in case it jumped out again and.... fml !! lol. don't think will be blogging already if that's the case. >.<

will typed out the lyrics once again one day when i'm free like today. will be sending my resume to new place tmr !! hopefully could start a normal day job life and liquid empire to start soooon. the. i day and night would be working and keep myself busy from restraining to think so much about nonsense and money keeps rolling rolling in ! :D

yeps, that's about all the bullshit i guess. oh ya, one more thing. i actually hope that twitter could actually let us choose the post that we wanna linked to our fb. cause u know i felt like taking off the link from my fb already. i wanna tweet and say what i wanna say and feels right now. but.... some things can't be linked to fb and let the whole world knows right?

though... alot people is using twitter already... but yet ! some are not using what !! haha. so anyway, just saying for the sakw of saying. hopefully twitter will have something just like foursquare to tick which website we wanna publish to and whether this, particular post we wanna link or not. boooo ~

anyway, i'm tired already. hope u guys enjoy reading my nagging. though it's rubbish. just uttering and blabberig nonsense cause i felt so alone today and lonely. like i've never talked to someone for a long time. *which is not true, cause i just said went to grammy's place for reunion dinner and to sing k.... -.-* ahhh , whatever it is , just feel like talking non stop lah. lol. whether to read it or not is ur choice. never force u people to continue reading too, right? lol.

alright, i said i better not say so mich in case it jumped to home screen suddenly and yet i'm still blabbering away. i'm gonna go sleep now and will blog again soon people. sooo tired. nights. xoxo. :D

I'M BORED !!!

2011-12-13T16:05:00.001+08:00

eh bee xi dee yee ehf gee hedge ai jay kay elle am an oh pee quee are ass tee you vee double-u axe why zeeee

are you people as bored as me that's why you all tried to read what i type above? hahahahahaha.
I'm bored at home, just done with my presentation. omg. so busy with work work work these few days as a new project is coming up so need to do lots of stuffs.

till i don't sleep well , i eat a lot and i'm just busy !

i tend to eat a lot when i'm stress. not a very good idea. need to do something bout it.

by the way, these few days, it is proven that i'm getting more and more dumb as days goes by. i don't know why. :( sigh ~ need to do something bout it too ! :O

haha, will upload the pics i took at hong kong once i'm much more free. busy now lah, no choice and the photoshoot photos i haven't get yet ! so cannot upload. haha. ^^ too bad, so sad. :p

gonna go rest my eyes a bit and then up to prepare for work again. omg, shag life i've got. work, work, work and still work. FML, seriously. :(

BUT BECAUSE OF MONEY, I WILL DO IT AND I CAN DO IT.

i grumble grumble grumble and at the end of the day, it's still the same. -.-
okay okay, don't grumble liao. bye bye ! :D

Nahhhh ~ saying goodbye with a pic of my future husband !

Hahahahahahahaha.

no lah , of course. i get this kind of husband, i will kill him first then kill myself !

don't want other girls to suffer also !

LOL.

Alright, this is real goodbye already. Till then, bye bye. ^^

Hello From Hong Kong

2011-12-03T03:52:00.001+08:00

hello people, i'm saying hello from hongkong.

insomnia attacked while i'm at hongkong, feeling sick on my last day

guess most probably due to the cold weather i can't adapt to and the drink, drank, drunk

session and the waking up early in the morning. lol.

dark eye rings seems to be my next close friends now. haha.

need to do something bout it.

i can't sleep and i know i gotta wake up early in the morning later to check out,

maybe do some last minute of shopping and then to the airport and back to singapore.

i'm out of NYP nursing course already. sad to say, went for attachment only for a day

and my leg couldn't stand the long hours of standing. that's sad. i'm already halfway there

and i really have the passion of being a nurse. well, i guess that's not the end of the world for me right?

since everyone kept saying i'm still young, i guess there's other way out.

therefore, i decided to go into a private school and then to enroll to a part time accounting classes ba.

then at the same time, i can work full time too. :)

liquid 40 is shifting place already but has not confirmed a place yet so i better work hard in my full time job. no more playing and time to get serious.

you know, sometimes it feels so good to have new group of friends in your life,

giving you new things to laugh at, new things to share, just new things to explore.

but yet also, i miss those days with my closed ones.

maybe i'm just someone who takes a very long time to adapt changes and someone who

wants to just remains at my own comfort zone even if there's a better chance out there for me

if i step out but i just won't. haha.

i know, that's bad. but this is just me.

accept it or fuck off. :x

haha, sounds kinda rude but this is me lah.

if you like me, you'll like.

but if you hate me... wait, do you think i like you either?

hahahahahahahaha. alright.

i "think" i somehow did promised to upload a lot of photos. about taipei trip, genting trip and many many more. awwww ~ guess i don't have the ability to do so. "MOST PROBABLY" i "think"

is also this hong kong trip and oh ya ! i went for a photoshoot.

hahahahahahahaha.

but a not so experienced want lah.

helped james buddy to get through his project. without getting paid of course.

also no experience. the head of my blog photo is one of the photo i took at the photoshoot.

well, some of them not very nice of course. haha. this is one of the best. :x

lol.

& i gay kiang and edit the colours furthermore. just some effects. haha.

anyway, will "TRY" to upload once i get all the photos. try ah, no promises. but most of the photos are already up at facebook. :)

wanted to make my blog a simple one, realised it has been kind of messy with so many of my own zipai shots. lol ! therefore, changed to this template. hope you guys like it and enjoy reading. trying to get to bed now. OMG. look at the time now ! *panda eye*

Goodnight ! :D

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2011-10-26T02:23:00.001+08:00

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BACK TO SCHOOL !

2011-10-18T15:27:00.002+08:00

i'm back to school peeps ! :) one word, sad. not sad because school has reopen and i no time to play but sad cause of all the memories i've there. people who've been in the same course and class as me , i think they should understand nah.

every single place i walk through, i will think of him and i miss him. :( i know i know, move on. today i learnt 3 things in lecture. :) whenever i'm sad or down, i'll tell myself, i'm okay, i'm alright and i won't give up. think positively and feel positively and i'll behave positively and that is mental wellness. hahahahahahaha. i can do it !

yessss, jiayou. will update pics soon i'll try k. first of all, i need to pack my cupboard. :x unwated clothes maybe can hold a flea market and sell cheap cheap. if not jiu give others if not jiu give garang guni. worst to worst, throw away. lol.

after settling everything, and having my own free time, i will post many pretty pictures ! :D got a new digital cam. take photos super chio. no need much edit already super pretty already the photos so will upload even faster cause this time without editing! lol. okay, off to bathe and prepare for work le. gambateh ~ byebye.

Saying hello from Taiwan. :D

2011-10-04T18:59:00.002+08:00

hello people, sending you my regards from taiwan now. using the hotel computer. haha. enjoying my life now though i'm sick. :( hahahahahahaha. shopping, eating, smoking and sleep ! no need to think too much for the time being now. that's one thing shiok and another things is no need work for this week and no school ! most shiok but coughing and block nose is killing me. :( that's one sad thing. gonna buy lots of maggie mee back to singapore i swear. hahahahahahaha. don't care nice or not. you all just gotta eat that ! lol. okay, gotta go now. bye and ciao ~ :D

i'm sick of my life. how? :(

2011-09-27T15:49:00.001+08:00

been having insomnia lately don't know for what reason also. sigh ~ just got an iphone 4 not long and haven't even jailbreak, i drink drank drink drama and dropped the whole phone and then home button spoil. went to repair as i don't wanna 1 for 1 exchange as i must sync again and also not sure whether it will be a brand new phone or not or someone else's previously so went to spend money on it instead and spent $90. fml. stomach discomfort these few days don't make me feel good too. still have to work tonight some more. dammit. anyway, something to be happy about is that gf wifey's 21st birthday party is coming! ;) definitely gonna have a blast abd have tonnes of fun. :D and lots more gossips coming up. lol. can't wait. so sexcited ~ ;) okay, blog up till then. school's reopening soon. sian~ :(

aloha! ;)

2011-09-26T08:59:00.002+08:00

been awhile since i blog. i'm perfectly fine for people who may be concerned. and i'm so damn busy with work. everyday drink drank drunk drama till i'm so damn sick and tired of life. why must we be born in this world and why must we work i wonder. i think i'm still okay compared to others. might have ups and downs definitely. anyway, trying to move on with my life now ever since that incident but even if i've moved on, still a part of me dearest swh. will find a day to go visit you i promise.

MY GIRLSsssss & myself. :)

2011-07-15T18:30:00.008+08:00

i'm here , once again, with my zipai pics first of course.

hahahahahahahahaha.

Picnik.com is really such a nice place to edit the brightness & contrast

and the effects of the pics.

It's chio-ness ! & what's more, IT'S FOC !!!! :D

what're you waiting for people,

faster go to http://picnik.com and edit your pictures for free !

Okay ~ i'm like doing some kind of promoting here now,

but who ask me to be born to be kind

and love to share everything nice with everyone. :D

okay, now. update the pics with me and my girls ~

THAT DAY AT NEX WITH THEM.

This one ugly and fat neh.

Again again again ~

this one not too bad, but my pose like simi prostitute like that.

LOL.

this one still not so bad. one of my favourite ! :D

Cute one ! i like, i like i like ! :D

Then i gotta rush off to work already.

Bought a lanyard for my phone for $3.90,

used one day and it broke off. -.-

ccb ~

not i chor lor (rough)

but the quality really is cannot make it. omg ~

lol !

KENNETH'S 22nd BIRTHDAY @ COSTA SAND PASIR RIS.

Hello, mr photographer, what chu doing?

we not ready lah dhey ~

again again ! *roarrrrr*

Okay, played ban luck (blackjack 21)

for awhile, not with money but beer cause need to clear

their stock of beer. LOL.

then home sweet home cause next day morning need go

tui jiao. :(

Okay, end with my own zipai pics again. :)

that's the end of my blog post.

hope you people enjoy and have a great weekend ahead ! :D

will update again ! :)

Oh ya, I'll be heading to genting with my liquid 40

boss and colleagues on 21st july 2011 - 24th July 2011!

Will be back with more pictures and details ! :D

be right back ~ byeeee ~

love ! :)

Cable car trip and Bintan trip on June.

2011-07-11T19:16:00.040+08:00

CABLE CAR TRIP.

oops, the above are all my zipai shots before i left home to meet Daniel at Vivo City. Hahahahahahahahhaha.

I wanted to take passport photo pictures for my resume. So

the above two is Daniel help me take one. But still, my resume

is still not updated. :x LOL !

Oh, and this is Mr. Daniel Chia. :)

ticket for cable car ! *wink*

entrance entrance. woohoo ~

The views ~ :)

Inside also will a bit bored lah ah. So snap snap a few.

LOL.

Mount faber, Jewel Box if i'm not wrong. :)

More and more cable cars !

Sentosa ! Here we come ! :D

This like a cool ah ~ :)

Hard rock cafe for dinner ! :)

Sit down, chill talk cock awhile and went back home. :)

BINTAN TRIP (25th June 2011 - 26th June 2011)

damn shag, finished word that day and head over to grand hollywood

to continue to drink and after that go home around 5 plus 6 in the morning

then slept for awhile, woke up and prepare to go Bintan. Super super chui ~ LOL.

gracey and me inside the cab, otw to tenah merah ferry terminal to meet Mr. Chia.

alone in the cab.

we're in the ferry !

But why my post like same same in the cab ah. -.-

Mr. Daniel Chia

Kenneth and Gracey ~ :)

And here we are, at the Bintan resort already. :)

Is this like a komodo dragon? LOL.

Eh, i damn shag lah, and the dark circle very dark,

so don't see me, see the dragon can already. LOL !

me and gracey went back to the hotel to rest for awhile and bathe to prepare for

our night activities while Kenneth and Daniel went for their massage.

After they came back from their massage and after me and gracey prepares finish. :)

Self zipai shots. :)

Me and gracey tgt camwhore shots.

See the fish fish fishes ~ hahahahahahaha.

We're waiting for the bus to get us to see the fireflies place ! :D

us, inside the bus.

I tell you, the road there is scary until ~

during night time lah, is totally no lamp post / light / road lights AT ALL.

Only the cars light and nothing else. So it's all pitch dark when you're

out in the road driving.

really super scary.

Even worst than malaysia's road condition, I SWEAR.

LOL.

Yay !

We're in the ferry now to go see our fireflies. :)

Too bad, can't really capture the fireflies using my sister's

lousy digital camera. LOL.

But well, the experience was kinda good. can catch them too.

I want to catch but i scared so when put on my hand and it started to

crawl, i will "hiu" (flick) it on the ground and the fly away. LOL.

We accidentally killed two of it also. *guilty*

But also not purposely de !!!

Can try, worth it. :)

After seeing the fireflies, off to kelong and nom nom ! :D

Wanted to show you all my shag face. LOL.

Beer again. Oh-Am-Gee.

Hahahahahahhahahaha.

Shark fins ! (Y)

Scallop with Brocolli.

Shiok ~

Crayfish ! *slurp*

And my all time favourite chillis ! :D

*drool*

I'm just bored so i just take the decoration and play with it. LOL.

Went back hotel and straight away koonzxzx (sleep)

after removing make up and changing to sleeping wear.

Super super tired. Hahahahhahahahaha.

DAY 2 @ BINTAN.

After preparing, in the hotel room still.

Camwhore is definitely a must want what. LOL. :P

At the restaurant for our free breakfast.

Wahhhh , i think the breakfast is still the best after every meals eaten over there. LOL.

Mine !

But regretted taking the rendang chicken's sauce though.

(not sure if i got the right spelling)

*slurp slurp*

Shiok shiok.

While smoking and while waiting for the guys to plan and pay money for

our next activities, we camwhore lah of course. LOL.

Rent the buggy and off we move off to play with the rifle.

Real guns , but no real bullets. Play with laser want. zzzzz.

While Kenneth is driving, me and gracey sat behind and camwhore. LOL.

Gracey also try to drive for awhile !

We also got video a little while,

it's at the very bottom of the post. Stay tuned ! :)

GOT HORSES LOHHHHH ! D:

that's the gun we're playing.

the instructor, trying to teach and give us instructions.

And that's our score !

Okay, i noob in playing games, can!? :(

See this small little boy !

Like a pro only. :o

So like this considered good?

Should be lah ah.

I think for me, all the arrows on the ground instead. Hahahahahahahahaha.

Pretty/handsome horse.

but poor horse, it seems so tired, having to walk and run

under such hot weather, pulling such heavy things. :(

Eh, the above two i looked damn fat !

Take again ~

LOL

Ahhhh ~ just nice gracey came out from toilet,

so can take tgt also. :D

Went to return the buggy key after that and went for our ATV!

ATV, not sure correct or not. whatever it is, it's our next activity ! :)

Tadah ~

But that's not ours lah obviously. :)

All ready ~ :)

Broom broom ~

& off we go. :)

The scenary.

The two instructors in front of us,

trying to avoid any mishap. LOL

Pool of mud ! :o

obstacles obstacles ~

After that he saw that i keep taking my digital cam to take picture

so he very nice, say take pictures for us. hehheh ~ :D

Kenneth's obstacles.

Hahahahahahahaha. :p

Conquer ! Yay !

*shows the haolian face*

LOL.

SEE THAT BIG POOL OF MUD !?

LOL.

*splish splash*

simi daiji leh kenneth? o.o?

Yay ! Conquer again ! :D

Done with the muddy muddy roads, off to main road and get back

to where we were in the first place. :)

The horse we saw previously and took picture with, remember.

Such a coincident ! LOL.

My leg was still in that position cause the mud on Daniel's leg was not

dry and was splashing to my legs ! -.-

Yay ! done.

Back to hotel room to rest and bathe and have our lunch then

home ! :D

my own shots again. heehee ~

The many different views of the roads there.

See the queue. Kua zhang loh !

The big blue sea ~ D:

me and gracey's pic shall marks the end of it.

Okay, did enjoy the trip there because got a lot of fun activities. But super

expensive and super hot and super tired. LOL.

Gonna stop here and go bathe and have dinner already.

Mummy niam already.

Anyway, gonna blog about me and my girls's pics soon. :)

Stay tuned ~ and meanwhile, enjoy our Bintan's video ! :D

bye byeeeee ~ :)

Advertise for friends and short update about myself. :)

2011-06-30T03:40:00.018+08:00

okay, back to blog after MIA for few weeks. haha.

I'm here to help a number of my friends to advertise their newly open blogshops. :D

don't say i not good, never advertise ah. here i am ! :)

oh ya, and i'm also here to update some super overdue-ed photos

taken last time when i blonde my hair and some recent ones after

i dyed blue black so you all can compare and contrast.

but before i show you people the pictures, definitely will help to advertise first

so that you all will continue reading. :p

neh neh ni poo poo ~ LOL !

For more pretty eyes for lens, do visit:

http://www.pretty-eye-lens.blogspot.com/

(there're various of nice and pretty lens there. so do make a trip there

and order some ! :D )

For some iphone accesories, or mix accesories, visit:

http://mixaccessories.blogspot.com

For pretty and some vintage clothes and bags, do visit:

http://thebellafemme.com/

(if you all want, can say my name so that i can have some credit lah ah.

hahahahahahaha, just kidding. :) )

okay now, let's let the photo to do the job. :)

When Cammie meets Kammy. :D

SENSATION NIGHT. :)

Long time no see already !

Miss working with her and Nellie so much. :(

if only they're still at liquid now.

Sigh ~

Anyway, Nellie wasn't at sensation with us that night

cause she going to play tennis the next day.

Act yi ge (act one) play tennis. LOL.

me and Christabelle and Jorinz.

I only worked with Christabelle for awhile at liquid.

And Jorinz, don't think so ba. :(

I think she left when i join liquid.

Must be quite fun working with them.

Ladiessssss ~ :D

See this joker, always full of nonsense.

So pretty but yet like to do so many funny faces.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. :D

one of the singer or dancer there.

Didn't know his name. LOL.

Funny also this one.

this guy above is Singaporean but working at thai disco,

singing chinese and thai songs there.

Been stucked at thai disco past few weeks cause firstly,

there's no other pubs opening until after 3 am, only thai disco.

and secondly, actually... the thai guys quite handsome lah. *shy*

OKAY ! i know i know !

all the thai guys there only can see, and be friends.

Cannot be more than friends or lover.

You all also don't think so much lah, okay.

But anyway, gonna stop going there to spend money already.

Will die of broke sia. LOL.

Just go there drink share share with friends okay lah,

but no flowers for them please. AN-OH, NO !

LOL.

Sorry, i ngiao (stingy) loh ~ Hahahahahahhahaha.

Okay, below are all of my zilian photos.

people who are not interested can close this page already. LOL.

I wanna ask you people after seeing my below photos,

my blonde hair suits me more? or black colour?

I'm so contradicted.

Some say the blonde nicer, some say black. Sigh ~

Okay lah, i know i looks ugly in all lah, okay!? happy!? tsk, *roll eyes*
LOL, don't care me, going insane already.

the above are zipai shots of my blonde hair. :D

Chio bo chio bo? ^,^

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. :p

okay, below are the zipai self shots of myself. So what do you people think?

Okay ~ i know, edit the colours until like that how to see?

And okay, i admit, i got edit away my pimples.

Walau ~ my complexion now damn chui (disaster) i tell you all. LOL.

I miss my last time complexion. :'(

But I can tell you, those who said that i blonde hair looks nicer

confirm is like those "xiao ah lian" (young female gangster)

want. Cause a lot people say the colour "lak sek" (drop off)

until super like "xiao ah lian".

Sigh ~ that's why i wanna dye to blue black.

AND AND AND AND AND....

.
I wanna go for hair extensions !

I don't wanna later extend whole hair long long gold colour like a scary leh.

But now i scared this blue black colour "lak sek" after I put on the extensions.

So contradicting again. FML.

Anyway, I will upload the photos of cable car trip and my Bintan trip soon !

Oh ya, just went and came back from Bintan. Been there for 2D1N.

Fun ! But... Expensive ! Shall update more again there ! :)

Adieous people and stay tuned ~ *love*

i'm gonna go watch my drama, "zui hou jue ding ai shang ni"

and then to koon already. Look at the time now ! O_O

hahahahahahahahaha.

"orh bak kak" (panda eyes) already !

Nights , bye and don't miss me people.

Muacks ~ :)

today; 365 days and still counting on.

2011-06-15T09:54:00.003+08:00

today marks the one year that he's gone by my side.

why i chose this photo?

Cause this photo was the photo we chose to put at our facebook tgt

before he's gone.

I'm sick , on this very day. WHY?!

only makes me miss him more.

I haven't had flu for so long. I don't mind coughing.

But why fever?

I still remember he used to force me to see the doctor when

he's around and knows that i'm sick cause i don't

like to see doctor. :(

Everything is different. I tried not to think as much as I can all these while.

I drink, drank and drunk.

Thought I've already slowly moved on and get ahead with life, with him

at a place in my heart BUT... i don't think that's the case.

I still remember I was somehow drunk or high one day and i miss him so much

that i hallucinate that he was still here and we were just having a tiff.

But you know, the harsh reality always hit you so damn hard.

Called his phone and it was off, looked down on my feet and realised...

Okay, I should not cry, I will not cry, I CANNOT CRY and I won't cry. :)

I can't sleep, cannot sleep, couldn't sleep.

zombie today. confirm. :(

Bought quite a number of stuffs for him.

Got mahjong, mixtures of cigarettes, tidbits, some money, gold teals.

LOL.

Mummy says burn more money for him so that he could give me dream,

say what, they below need pay money to give us dream de.

Hahahahahahahaha.

Like she very familiar with the below system hors. -.-

Later meeting gracey and kenneth together eat lunch, then dabao for him

and head off to visit him ! yay.

finally, made my promise. :D

will take photos if i have the mood, got the mood and then update over at our

lovely blog. this blog is rusty, that blog is more rusty.

Busy with work !

Need more staffs. Short handed. (Hmmm, am i even using the correct words? whatever ~ )

Okay, off to prepare now and to write letter also.

Been so long since i wrote to sosa.

I hope you're doing good.

Never knew it could still hurt so much.

Distance is the worst cause i'd never know

if you'd be missing me too or had already

forgotten about me.

I miss you so much,

still bits and pieces of me.

love you, 25th feb 2009.

As promised ! :D

2011-05-23T17:12:00.009+08:00

Okay, back here to blog as promised that once i got pictures

of the gatherings from Vicki or Jasmine. :)

The below pictures are all from Vicki. As expected, Jasmine's

too busy or lazy to upload. Luckily I got ask Vicki to take

for spare. Muahahahahahahaha. :)

Our small little gathering at Nex, Hot tomato.

JUST AS HOT AS US !

Hahahahahahahahaha, okay, disgusting I know.

You all wanna puke I know but whatever lah. :p

Huijing haven't finish work so too bad, can't join us for the good meal. :(

That's our foods !

I keep asking them to choose cheaper foods, not too expensive like

DTF, etc. I no money lah ah. :x

So, we chose hot tomato ! :D

The weird thing about Vicki is that she kept asking me and Jas

to save up some space on our stomach, keep asking us not to eat

too full.

So we're like..... "what's going on?" "what're you planning?"

So, i knew there's definitely gonna be more good food that she brought extra

and i bend and slant a little to peek on Vicki's bag and then.... BOOM !

Secret disclosed ! :D

That's so sweet of her to buy a cake for our small little gathering ! :D

That's Jasmine, Vicki and me. :D

Vicki asked us to treat it as it was a celebration of our birthday

cause ours is already over.

mine is like feb, jasmine's was may and vicki's november.

A bit weird, cause mine is like super duper long already. :x

But nvm lah, I buay paiseh one. Hahahahahahaha. :)

therefore......

Cut the small little cute, sweet cake together ! :D

And blow the 21 candles together ! :D

I, snapshot them. Hahahahahahaha. :)

And the cakes.

Tagged Huijing the cake on facebook cause we're so sweet and left

one piece for her. :D

tralalalalalalalalalala ~

Head over to my Grandmummy's place and then see nephew

while waiting for huijing to arrive. :)

And here she comes ~ :D

Eh? What's with this picture?

I ugly leh, come on ~ take again!

pretty pretty please? *watery eyes*

Hahahahahahahahahaha.

Won ! took another extra two ! ;)

Went up to Jasmine's place for toilet.

Anyway, Jasmine, Vicki and my grandmummy stays at the same block ! Heehee ~

Long story, but i wanna share here.

We studied Braddell Primary right, then my mummy they all moved house to

Serangoon North but i don't wanna transfer school to that area

cause already last year of primary school and then I don't wanna waste money change

school uniform and change environment to make new friends, so my mummy suggested

for me to stay at my grandmummy's place. :D

Then jasmine and Huijing was staying at Kim Keat area that time. they just

stay opposite block thus me and Vicki always go home together and Huijing

and Jasmine will bus home together from our side. :)

So we always took turns and go to each other's house to slack and play. :)

Then we suggested that Jasmine and Huijing to move over to Toa Payoh so that we

4 could stay on the same block and Jasmine suggested to her family and tadah ~

Just nice they wanna move house and just nice got one unit wanna sell out

at that block so all just nice, just nice and boom !

She stays toa payoh liao. :D

Hahahahahahahaha, how cool and happening right? ;)

then we all graduated and somehow or rather, drifted abit as life gets us

busy with our own stuffs. and we always said to meet up meet up

but only mouth says only

and NOW, WE MADE THE REAL THING HAPPEN !

Muahahahahahaha. \m/

So , we already plan and make it a point to somehow or rather, try to make ourself

free once in a month for meet up.

For a while, for a movie, or dinner, or to stay overnight together

also can. ;)

lalalalalalalala ~

happy ! :D

So, enough of my grandmother's story,

omg, really is grandmother's story. :x

after going to jasmine's place for toilet and to catch up

with her grandfather, surprising, he still remembers us.

And jasmine borrowed her father's car and off we go

to Braddell's Macdonald for supper !

Fattening, sinful.

But i'm the one who suggested, AS USUAL. :x

Hahahahahahahahaha.

Me and huijing was actually not looking at the lens, but the

screen where it shows our faces. Muahahahahahaha. :p

Reached my place, before I get my ass of the car. Hahahahahahaha.

Alright, that's all for our primary school gathering. ;)

Today gonna have a small catch up awhile at AMK with Huijing,

Jasmine, Benjamin and Lionel for awhile. Cause Vicki's not free today. :(

Alright, here's photo of me and Esther while waiting for

Gracey and belle at T.G.I.F that day ! :)

Seeee ~ looking at the mirror instead of the lens again. :x

hurhurhurhur ~

Normal right?

I think people who normally loves to camwhore always does that.

SEEEEEE ! this time is Esther hors, not me.

Alright ! :)

Update till here then.

gonna go prepare and have dinner liao.

woohoo ~ Bye !

Oh ya, before i go, found this song's lyrics quite meaningful and

wanna share. Okay, meaningful for my side of story,

so people who don't wanna feel emo, or don't want me to

spoil you all de mood, just skip the below part and

AFTER READING THIS SENTENCE,

CLOSE THIS PAGE ALREADY ! bye ~ :)

I just can't believe you're gone.

still waiting for morning to come.

When I see if the sun will rise,

in the way that you're by my side.

Well, we got so much in store,

tell me what is it i'm reaching for.

When we're through building memories,

I'll hold yesterday in my heart,

in my heart.

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made.

They can take the music that we never play.

All the broken dreams,

take everything.

Just take it away,

but they can never have yesterday.

They can take the future that we'll never know,

they can take the places that we said we will go.

All the broken dreams,

take everything.

Just take it away,

but they can never have yesterday.

You always choose to stay,

I should be thankful for everyday.

Heaven knows what the future hold,

or least where the story goes.

(I never believed until now)

I know I'll see you again I'm sure.

No, it's not selfish to ask for more.

One more night, one more day,

one more smile on your face.

But they can't take yesterday.

They can take tomorrow and the plans we made.

They can take the music that we never play.

All the broken dreams,

take everything.

Just take it away,

but they can never have yesterday.

They can take the future that we'll never know,

they can take the places that we said we will go.

All the broken dreams,

take everything.

Just take it away,

but they can never have yesterday.

I thought our days would last forever,

but it wasn't our destiny.

Cause in my mind, we had so much time,

but I was so wrong.

No, I can't believe that i can still find the

strength in the moments we made.

I'm looking back on yesterday ~

~Yesterday, by Leona Lewis.

Back to work; Share the love

2011-05-16T18:32:00.020+08:00

Sorry people for neglecting my blog and my lovely blog. :(

back to work already and busy occupying myself by going out and

drink drink drink. drink until i wanna die already. hahahahahahaha.

met up with my primary school, childhood close friends,

Vicki (huifen), Jasmine and Huijing !

Finally, after 8 years ! yoohoo ~

Still as much things to talk about.

Luckily got mutual friends and Vicki is still as blur as ever. :)

yay !

All is still the same old pattern. :D

Waiting for them to upload photos and tag me then blog about it again.

So sorry, i got no digital cam now so can't upload. heehee ~

Alright, back to liquid 40 and work . Huat ahhh !

hahahahahahahaha.

then same, working as telemarketer at ERA

then stopped my work at home already. kinda sian eh. :x

See my baby nephew, CYRUS !

Soooo cute ! heehee ~

i wanna have a baby too.

I wanna have it with an ang moh. :x

lalalalalala ~

aiya, see how lah . just let nature take its course.

when it happens, it happened.

T.G.I.F with girlfriends! (belle and gracey)

Feng was busy preparing for exams. :(

well, meet up soon and next gathering at liquid !

Wanna intro you all good and nice foods !

and it's cheap and nice !

heehee ~

See, always me who aim the food first. ALWAYS. -.-

Sweet and bitter drink of wifey. Candy floss lehhhh ~

hahahahahahahaha. :)

the effects of wifey's camera is sooo nice !

tempted to buy canon's digital cam too.

But i like sony leh. how how how how how how? :(

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA,

little secrets of ours. :p

they're my pillar of supports and i know i've said that before,

but i'm really glad i've met them.

dont know what i'll do without them.

thanks for being there always, whenever i needed someone.

Loves , much. :D

BIRTHDAY BOY @ LIQUID 40 !

Happy birthday Manjit !

It's good to see your face at boat quay after so long again! :D

MY NEW HAIR COLOUR !

nice? :D heehee ~

Bleach of my hair, making it felt like grass now. :(

but using conditioner to wash my hair now so it's still okay ~ :)

luckily not as gold as i thought. omg. scary. but overall,

i like the hair colour ! :D

WENT TO ESTHER'S PLACE

to mj tgt with her bf , carolyn and carol's bf. :D

took pics with esther's baby, charko !

CUTE !

Booo ~ so scared. hahahahahaha. :)

Bear hug ~ ahahahahahahahaha.

AH MA'S PLACE

for my cousin's solemnisation. :)

Me and weiting. :)

Me and xiuhua.

my cousin-in-law

Cousin's soon to be wife so is my

cousin-in-law, right?

hahahahahahahahahaha.

Aiyo, so many people getting married. i also want! :(

Me and Evonne. :D

Me and Lilian jiejie.

the female lead. :)

me and weiping aka ah girl to us.

eh? why like my cousin alson getting married with ah girl ah? -.-

super disiao only alson. hahahahahahahahaha.

Only i act cute, as usual ~ -.-

Okay, my sister suggested all act cute together. hahahahahahaha.

SINGAPORE FLYER,

to visit esther for her flea. :D

SELF SHOT CAMWHORE ! :)

NEX DINNER WITH

Gracey, kenneth and mega bestfriend. :)

okay, done blogging.

no time to edit the pictures cause i needa update my lovely blog

and need to prepare for work already. :(

So, here is my ugly, pimple face and whatever you all wanna say.

You all happy can already. hahahahahahahahha.

not very pretty lah ah, i admit first. :p

oh shit, just realised, i forgot to upload me and esther's photos

when i was alone at heeren, waiting for gracey and wifey

to finish school then T.G.I.F

nvm, update again tgt the other time. :D

okay okay, really gtg already. hmmm , should i update today at our lovely

blog or tmr? like very rush leh. sigh ~ :(

update again soon.

30 more days. :)

miss you.

In case you people miss me. :D

2011-04-05T03:36:00.002+08:00

Woohoo ~ i'm here again with my newly taken pics ! :D

before went out to work and camwhore a little with the lens my sister

bought for me at Thailand ! ;)

Been busy working, but lazy also. :(

anyway, i shall not disclose too much bout what i'm doing about the telechatter,

that work at home thingy. Muahahahahahaha.

Keep it secretive. :p

lalalalalalala ~

I've been watching too much of Korea's variety show.

I'm watching this running man currently.

It's a variety show about catching and hide and seek.

It's freaking funny i never bluff you. Even more funnier than

"kang xi lai le" that's why I hop over to watch that instead. Oops ~

I'm a traitor. :x

I happen to glance through iweekly's magazine and it's the first time

i closely looked at every member of super junior and this ryeonwook, a.k.a li xu

is soooo freaking handsome ! omg. super my type and my cup of tea.

but, too bad, I'm nobody to him. :( FML.

Seeee ~ isn't him so fucking perfect?

Like, nose so perfect,

eyebrow so perfect,

i like single eyelid guys so the eyes also perfect to me.

And the mouth. omg !!!!

Okay, I know he's a bit skinny.

But i got fetish for skinny and fair skin guy. :x

muahahahahahahaha !

Whatever ~

I'm so gonna work hard, earn and save money,

then go CC take up those cheap course to earn their language

and off I'll fly to Korea ! Yay-ness.

I wanna see see look look at their country and see all the handsome guys

and then fantasise myself. Omg, okay. I know i a bit sick here lah,

but whatever okay. Byebye people. :)

off to sleep and to work hard tomorrow.

*gambateh*

pssst !

2011-03-31T00:37:00.004+08:00

yo people ! i'm back here to blog ! Showing my sickening face. hurhurhur ~

Anyway, I'll try to make it short and sweet lah.

I'm starting to get back to work already.

Not to goreng pisang though cause that bastard uncle know

i cannot do a lot of thing compared to last time, so don't want me. T.T

okay, maybe is i too choosy cause i only wanna work with sbtf and wanting

but he don't want to let other people off.

Eh, very what loh ! I accident is I asked them to take over me

but i going back de leh. Knnzxzxc.

Ahhhh , whatever lah.

Therefore, I'm working as a telemarketer now

cause i cannot work tough work like walking around or keep standing.

Okay, I sound so weak now, I seriously don't like it. :(

Anyway, no choice. T.T

Okay lah, pay wise, not too bad and when i start school, i still can continue working. :D

cause it's only 3 hours per day and it's only 3 days per week. :)

So, I'm fine with the job cause it's kinda cool just to sit there and talk on the phone.

the thing that i dislike about it is that i don't like to repeat things

over and over and over again. :(

but, no choice.

Because of money, I'll ENDURE.

*the power of money* -wink-

Repeat things over and over and over again is another thing.

another awkward thing is that, we're actually calling at a kinda small

office and there were like 4-5 of us and 2-3 of us is there making calls

and the rest is like there using com, paperworks etc and they're actually

your manager. Fucking hell ~ it was soooo "paiseh" to like talk infront

of so many people man.

But, I just don't care. :x FOCUS, F O C U S !

Lol, act one focus only lah. kns.

okay, should stop complaining since it's only the first day of my work.

anyway, I'm also back to work as a telechatter. Cool or what, stay at home

use phone got money, but whatever lah, still need to entertain them to dirty talk.

FML ! :(

Because of money AGAIN, no choice, just SUCK IT UP ! :(

Okay, photos now ! :)

The above pic is just me hao-lian'ing (showing off)

my hair lah. Seen like kinda in trend this kind of hairstyle so I try at

home also, before going out. LOL.

But my hair too short, so no choice, people tie around the forehead there,

i tie around the top of my head, and act like it's hairband. -.-

this was the day before i went for my interview. was preparing

and then realise i still got time, so camwhore a little. :)

Ahhhh, these are all shots of today. Which is, just only ! :D

Sorry for the bad quality lah, cause everyone is sleeping and i'm alone in

the living room so i didn't on my light to use my lappy to camwhore

so when i edit the pictures using picnik.com, i tried to edit

the brightness and contrast and it turned out like that. :x

Anyway, I play cheat a little also. Cause i'm still wearing the lens my sister bought

for me from Thailand ! woohoo ~ she's the best lah. :D

By the way, if one person passed away haven't one year, then "qing ming" never

go and "bai" want huh? Just curious ~

I wanna go to the place where my beloved boy's ash is placed.

But I don't think I'll be able to get that place's address. Hopefully next year

then TH might get the address from his brother then go pray tgt with them.

Ahhhhh, maybe i'll just make a trip to his tablet there someday.

Tablet, tablet? Correct right?

Ahhhh, anyway, I still owe him a bag of paper cranes. I'll just work harder

and when i get my pay, jitao cab there ! Muahahahahahahha,

yay-ness.

okay, i'm off to removing my lens and then wash face and then sleep already.

Tomorrow wake up earlier to start the telechatter again which i only

manage to work one hour today . -.- sian leh ~

bye bye people, i totally got no life. :(

boohoo ~

*just wanna complain*

CAN I GO BACK TO SCHOOL ON OCT INSTEAD!?

T.T

To move on or to stay at the same point?

2011-03-23T17:36:00.004+08:00

i know when he just left, I told myself that I wanna continue

working at TTSH in future if I really wanna work as a nurse

because that's all the memories that we had among all hospital.

we would go to ttsh whenever he's not feeling well. like , he's having

diarrhoea, or when he wanna have mc for work. Hahahahahahaha.

I wanted to go back to goreng pisang and work when I'm going back to school

to study. I wanna continue to go back to Bishan and meet his friends whenever I can.

Going to Bishan to meet his friends and slack is still okay.

cause we laugh, and joke around so there's never time for me alone

to think about him.

I went back to goreng pisang to work just for a day and it caught me thinking,

whether I wanna move on or to stay at the same point.

I went back to work ytd cause just nice sbtf's friend can't work and

I wanna work so badly that's why she helped me and I worked for a day.

Anyway, while working, got a timing where we would be quite free

so we were chatting away.

I suddenly thought of those days when I was about to finish work and there

I would see his silly face waiting for me to finish work.

It was so heartwrenching, painful and difficult to fight back my tears.

And I was thinking, do I really wanna make myself so painful by staying

at the same point and keeps get reminded of the things of him?

As in, maybe I can move on?

Goes to another hospital and work?

Work elsewhere instead of pisang?

But then again, I don't ever want to forget him.

I want to always remember him whether it's good or bad.

I need to grow up and face it.

I cannot start to avoid it.

I know memories are good enough but it's still memories.

It still don't seems real.

I'm afraid I may ever forget his face.

I'm starting to forget how his voice sounds to me.

I'm starting to feel as if we both were never together before.

I'm starting to feel that I'm losing his love for me. :(

Okay, whatever it is, I'm gonna stay strong and I'm staying put at where

I am cause I don't ever wanna forget those sweet, bitter, beautiful memories he's

given to me.

Okay lah, stop being so emo already. Don't wanna make ppl tear

from reading my blog again. Now, picturesssss ~ :D

Camwhore a little at home as usual. LOL.

You know now, other than camwhoring at home,

I did something even more stupid ! LOL.

I'm just too bored lah, no choice.

Have stop drama-ing these few days. No mood again.

Sot sot want lah me. Hahahahahahahahaha.

I went to record my own singing on youtube and I publish it !

Yay ! So I'm on youtube now ! Holyyy ~

Hahahahahahahahahahaha.

But I now got alot pimples lah.

So if you happen to search for it and you found it, please

don't laugh at my pimples. Can laugh lah, but don't put nasty comments

lah k? I'll sad. LOL.

And the sound quality not very good.

That's why my singing not as good as usual !

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

okay lah okay lah, gotta admit, my singing is not

very nice lahhhh.

I just wanna be on youtube and make a fool out of myself. :x

Okay, whatever, you all wanna see, go search yourself.

I'm not gonna post it here or on my facebook until i'm confident enough yo !

LOL.

That's sbtf and I before going to Johnny's and Ying's wedding ! :D

And that's me !!!!

Don't know why smile until like that also. Kns.

And, I braid my fringe like that cause I wanna air my pimples lah.

in the end went there, everybody talks about my pimples instead

of my legs. Hahahahahahahahahha. (Y)

Okay, I think that's about all. I'll see what I'm going to blog over at our lovely's blog. :D

byeeeee ~

Tonight going supper at bedok 85 with lovely Gracey, kenneth and yifeng most probably. :)

Thanks people for being there. You people are the love of my life seriously !

You peopl rawkssss ~

Love you all to the maxi maxi maxi maximum !

"No matter what you say about life,

I learn everytime I bleed.

The truth is a stranger, soul is in danger,

gotta let my spirit be free to...

admit that i'm wrong and then change my mind.

Sorry,

but I can't seem to move on and keep you in my mind.

If I live every moment, won't change any moment,
there's still a part of me and you.
I will never regret you,
still the memory of you,
marks everything I do.

I can't waste time so give it a moment, I realise,

nothing's broken.

No need to worry bout everything I've done,

live every second like it was my last one.

I loved you and needed protection.

You're still a part of everything I do, you're on my heart,

just like a tattoo....

I'll always have you and i'll always love you. swh."